A GYE member shared with us the response he received from Rabbi Twerski when he reached out for help with his
I respect your sincerity and desire to overcome this problem. Before Rav Yochanan ben Zakkai died, his talmidim asked him for a berachah. He said, “May you fear Hashem as much as you fear other people. There are things a person would be ashamed to be seen doing by others but is not ashamed to be seen doing them by Hashem.”
People who would be afraid to look at inappropriate material in a disreputable store because someone might see them there have no shame in being seen by Hashem. The first paragraph in the Shulchan Aruch instructs us to constantly be aware that we are in the imminent presence of Hashem and behave accordingly.
Work on improving yiras Shamayim. Read the appropriate sifrei mussar on developing yiras Shamayim and pray for it intensely.
I have something else that may be of help, but it is not on the computer, so I cannot email it. I can fax it or mail it to you.
Today’s yetzer hara is greater than ever before in history, and among others, you are facing a difficult struggle. But you must try hard, and Hashem will help you.